Struggling today. There seem to be babies everywhere, and people having babies, and people ooing and ahhing about babies and pregnancies. I feel surrounded by it, as though I can't escape it. Even my lessons (both this week and next week) for the kids' Sunday School class have something to do with babies being born and barren couples being given children of promise. I don't know why it is striking a nerve with me so, but today it feels suffocating. I'm tired of watching other people living in abundant blessing, families growing without ever even acknowledging that that might be something one cannot simply expect. I don't mean that I'm angry that others are blessed in the area of family growth and I'm not. I mean, that people just expect this, as if it's a right. I guess I used to live that way too. I don't know why it bothers me so.
I won't pretend to be strong today. My heart, it hurts today.