In another post I will address the specifics of our doctor's appointment. The death of a friend has largely overshadowed our grief. And yet....has also spurred us on to live the time that we have for the glory of God. Strangely, two unrelated events: Amber's death and the grief of possibly never conceiving...these two things coupled together have put our hearts in a place of peace and grace even though we grieve. Can these things be possible at the same time? Grief and joy? Suffering and rejoicing? I believe so.
As Amber said to me in an email a couple of months ago:
I believe He will make your path clear to you in His time. I know you believe that too. Isn't it solid rest to trust in a living God who loves His children so perfectly?
Just a short post to let you know that we are okay. I know from your emails and calls that our friends and family have worried for us. We have wept and mourned, and...praised the Lord. He gives and takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
We step out in faith. We entrust ourselves to You--You who hold the stars in place and sing over Your children. You, who hurt when we hurt, who catch our tears and bottle them. We trust that Your "no" is Your most excellent way. Thank You for encircling us in Your love.
Your grace is still enough.