Thursday, December 11, 2008

::are we seeing a pattern here?::

I have had exactly 3 cycles since my surgery (to remove right ovary/endometrioma and endometriosis, Aug. 21, 2008--in case you're new here).
Cycle 1: 27 days
Cycle 2: 32 days
Cycle 3: 28 days

Will Cycle 4 (which, granted is a month away) be another 30ish number? I'm worried that my remaining left ovary might not be doing its job of taking over for its bum companion that was removed a few months ago. My doc told me that instead of just ovulating every other month, my left ovary would actually take over and pop out an egg for both ovaries. Isn't that weird? It's cool, but it's weird.

And yet...I'm still a little worried. The thought of only having half the chances when we already have pretty low chances is kind of depressing.

Don't get me wrong, though. I'm ecstatic about normal cycle lengths. Pre-surgery, every cycle lasted at least 35 days. Usually it was more like 37, and sometimes it hit the 40's. Having a 28 day cycle actually seems magical for me.

I'm just really interested to see how this continues. Although a 9 month interruption would be very welcome. :)
I keep wanting to blog more here, but I am just not sure what to write about. I mean, I am a mom, which was the endgame in all this longing and waiting, right? And yet I am still infertile. It's a paradox, really...I'm not sure how to handle it. So that's why I've been a little skimpy on the posting.


Fertilized said...

hoping for good things for your cycle next month

andrea_jennine said...

Just a thought that might ease your worries. When we ovulate, it doesn't actually alternate between ovaries each month; there's no left-right left-right pattern. The ovary with the biggest follicle releases the egg, so if one ovary produces the largest follicle several months in a row, you'll ovulate on one side several months in a row. So with only one ovary, that ovary will produce and release the biggest follicle each month, de facto. It doesn't have any competition, so it wins the race to ovulation every time!

Glenna Marshall said...

Thanks, Andrea, for that information. You'd think after almost 5 years of IF I'd know these things, but my ovaries were never in question until this summer, so I never researched that. That makes a lot of sense, and if I'd been more specific when questioning my doc, i'm sure she would have explained it better.
Thanks, again!

Anonymous said...

Glenna,u r in my thoughts and prayers. I have only one working tube,my worry is wht if i ovulate the wrong side...Ok,but we ought to realise our God is mighty and His miracles are not based on scientific facts at all. God can do that which is impossible n so we needn't research stuff and worry. I'm saying WE coz I do the same thing as you- get depressed....Cheer up...n do pray for me too.


a_weak_rose said...

I have NOT quit praying for you to experience pregnancy. I am grateful to God for your lil man---SO grateful! And I'm asking for MORE, by granting you pregnancy in addition to Isaiah!
Love you!

Alex and Jill said...

That's the only thing I loved about getting rid of my left ovary and cycles are finally normal length. It is cool that the remaining ovary kicks in and we still ovulate every month. The only bad thing with IVF is that I can't produce as many eggs. Always something! :)

I always enjoy seeing a post from you...I check daily, just incase. :)


Mrs. U said...

Hi Glenna!!
Fellow mom that is also infertile here!! :) I will pray for y'all in this area!

Mrs. U