Thursday, April 23, 2009

::5 years of infertility::

Five years of trying to conceive have come and gone. We are a week into our 6th year. I expected to feel..something. And I do...I just struggle to put it into words.

For me, it was singleness. Then God led me to William.
Then it was childlessness. Four years later, God gave us Isaiah through adoption.
Now a year later, I intensely desire another child. But, perhaps God will simply lead me to contentment with Himself.

My heart always seems to hunger, but I know it will not rest until it rests in Him.

7 comments:

Chad & Amber said...

Sweet Glenna,

Thank you for your blog, I was just introduced to it by a friend, my husband and I have battled infertility also, we were just recently blessed with a little boy back in November, who fell in out laps through emergency placement from the state(long story) and we are now halfway through the adoption process. James is bi-racial with lots of curly hair and beautiful skin like your sweet Isiah. I was so excited to find your blog and read about your story. I look forward to getting to know you more.

Amber

Chad & Amber said...

Glenna,

Sorry for all the wrong spellings..long day with a baby. :)

Allison said...

i've had this conversation so many times with chad. about all sorts of longings we carry in our hearts, as we walk through our life. employment longings, friendship longings, baby longings...it never ends.

we always conclude the conversation by admitting that there's a certain level of discontent that will only be resolved by being present with the Lord, when the battle of the flesh is finally and ultimately won, forever.

but there are certainly still 'those things' for which we fervently pray for, and we trust that the Lord places desires in our hearts for a purpose. how He meets those desires is up to Him. and so we ask...and wait...and ask...and wait...

...and i lift your name often, before the Lord...

Marian said...

Glenna, thank you for your honesty! I was just thinking about "contentment" yesterday. How could Paul say that whatever state he was in he was content? You answered it ~ he was single minded & content in His maker. Oh to have Paul's focus ...but I fail so often. We too struggled with infertility before we adopted so I know your hunger dear sister. Praying

Anonymous said...

pray for these families, that if they do need to allow their children to be adopted, that they do so and do not abort

Struggling families look at adoption

http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2009-05-18-mother_N.htm?loc=interstitialskip

also, check out naprotechnology.com

omsoul.com

fertilitycare.org

Tracey said...

I think because I am 41 and just adopted my first, that I don't have those pangs anymore. If I had adopted in my 20's I'd probably want more too...it's a lot harder at 41. God bless and good luck.

Kelly said...

Glenna,

Thank you so much for visiting me over at The Barefoot Mama. :o) I wanted to come here and say hello and tell you what a beautiful name you have, and then I read this post - and my heart just goes out to you. It took awhile to conceive Elizabeth (1.5 years), which I know wasn't actually a long time because I have close friends who are not yet parents after long journeys with infertility. Thank you for sharing your heart in this post. I am praying for you to be blessed with contentment from the Lord - your Isaiah is just a gift! YOU are a gift to him! What a beautiful family in every way. I wish that I had the right words to express how thankful I am that there are women who still cling to Jesus despite their pain, because it's people like you who remind us to be grateful for all of the blessings that the Lord has given us and remind us to hold fast and steady to our great Comforter.

Praying that you have a fabulous week, mama!

In His Love,
Kel