Thursday, August 27, 2009

::in my heart today::

And so another 28 days comes to a dismal end for me today. Although I know our chances of conception "on our own" are ridiculously low, I keep praying and hoping that the Lord will intervene, shattering statistics and diagnoses. I know that He can, but for now it surely seems that He doesn't desire it for us. I'm struggling today as my heart fights despair. The words to this old hymn are rattling around in my mind this morning:

Rock of Ages, cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee.
Let the water and the blood,
From Thy wounded side which flowed,
Be of sin the double cure,
Save from wrath and make me pure.


Nothing in my hand I bring,
Simply to Thy cross I cling;
Naked come to Thee for dress,
Helpless look to Thee for grace;
Foul I to the fountain fly,
Wash me Savior or I die.


Not the labor of my hands,
Can fulfill Thy law's demands;
Could my zeal no respite know,
Could my tears forever flow,
All for sin could not atone;
Thou must save and Thou alone.


While I draw this fleeting breath,
When my eyes shall close in death,
When I rise to worlds unknown,
And behold Thee on Thy throne,
Rock of Ages cleft for me,
Let me hide myself in Thee.


Could my tears forever flow?
Could my zeal no languor know?
These for sin could not atone;
Thou must save, and Thou alone.
In my hand no price I bring;
Simply to thy cross I cling.


:::

Ah, hope and despair...mingled together and overflowing in my heart.

-glenna-

4 comments:

entrusted said...

I'm sorry.

I love that hymn.

Andi-bo-bandi said...

Glenna, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I truly am. I wish one of these months would end it a big surprise for you! I do. It's so hard to understand when God doesn't answer in the way we want...

Faith said...

Believing that He can and believing that He will are so hard for me to reconcile in my mind. I KNOW that He is beyond able, but I have no idea if He will (for me) or not....such a hard place to be.

I'm so sorry and I'm praying for you!

Elaine said...

I'm sorry you are feeling a bit down, but you are so right. If anyone can shatter statistics, it's the Almighty Doctor...cling to Phil 4:11; that verse got me through so much when we were trying. I will be praying specifically for you today, and I know God has a plan for you--and I'm already thanking him for it.