Is this not what I imagined my life to be like? I'm outdoors on a cool fall morning watching my baby son run around examining the world around him. He brings me a leaf to examine and I name it for him: "Leaf!" I pause in my writing to put jackets on both of us as the breeze is quite cool. The gentle rays of the sun peek out from behind trees to touch my face. My cup of coffee cools next to me and I have to protect it lest Isaiah drops a leaf or twig in it. (Smile) The only one missing is William who is headed to P______ to meet his dad for golf. I pray his trip is safe and enjoyable for him.
Other than his absence, it is picture perfect. No...it didn't happen the way I thought it would. I am still a barren woman, but more than that--the Lord has made me a joyous mother. I do not deserve such blessing.
Lord, You have poured out Your grace over me. Your goodness is so undeserved. Nothing in me merits such gifts. Thank You, Father. How kind You are to me....me--one who deserves only death and destruction, so heavy and damning is my sin. Yet you have redeemed my life from the pit and made me new. You have then continued to poor out grace upon grace. Grace upon grace.
Today my heart is full.