Just for curiosity's sake, how many of you keep track of your infertility marathon? Do you mark the anniversary of when you first (and probably naively) began trying to conceive? Do you look back and think, "I had no idea what was coming,"?
I was just curious if you did, too. My 6th TTC anniversary is coming up and I've been dwelling a lot over the past 6 years. Been reading old journals and old posts and counting my blessings. God has been so faithful to move me past the emotional wreckage where I once lived. I know sometimes my posts here reflect differently from that statement because I still seem like an emotional basketcase, but seriously...if you had known me that first year you wouldn't have liked me very much. I truly believe God has used my infertility to make me someone I wouldn't have otherwise been. It has been a refining process that has shown me how poorly I've dealt with disappointment, how desperate I am for my Savior, and how faithful our sovereign God is.
It's not over, but even as I approach year number seven, I fully expect for God to continue in His goodness.
No, I am not pregnant, but tonight I am looking back at the past faithfulness of God, and I find myself very content in that. Praise You, Father!