As an infertility blogger who is now a mother through adoption, I wonder if I can still blog.
My posts used to resonate with many women who were in that same empty place of longing. We were tight. We knew exactly what the other felt when pregnancies were announced, when a period showed up on the same day a baby shower invitation arrived in the mail, when baby dedications took place on Mother's Day at church (talk about a double burn!). We were bummed when infertility blogs turned stagnant after a positive test was rejoiced, when a popular IF blogger simply disappeared after achieving pregnancy, when long-time IF bloggers moved to the world of mommy-bloggingdom. It's totally understandable. But I think I better understand why a lot of IF bloggers stop blogging when they become moms. It's what I did.
Because that is where I find myself these days--in this already-not-yet kind of tension. Already a mom, still infertile. BUT--a mom. So, I wonder if I lost my blogging credibility when I signed my name on the final adoption papers that proclaimed Isaiah my son.
Do you know what I mean?
This is in no way a post looking for comments or edification. I'm not that desperate yet. ;-) But I find that I don't read IF blogs nearly as often as I used to, and I'm totally surprised when I click through my blogroll and see old pregnancy announcements and baby pictures. Do some of you wonder what to blog about when you find yourself at the end of this long rat race and have finally attained motherhood?
So....I put it to the few of you who still follow along....what do you want to read? What is most encouraging to you? What is helpful as a woman experiencing IF? Give it to me.
Even though I feel slightly out of touch, I'm still where you are to some extent: my womb is empty, but my hope is in Christ.